Plea of Insanity

Birthday~!

2009-06-04T17:58:00.000-07:00

Mmm hmm. Yup. That's right.

My birthday is tomorrow. In just a few short hours, I'll be seventeen.

Now I know that by no standards is that old, but I just feel old. I feel like my life is going really, really fast, like someone left a tape on fast forward by accident. I know I have a big, beautiful life ahead of me. It's just...I'm Peter Pan. I just don't want to leave it behind, ya know?

It's like my body wants to age, but my mind disagrees.

That being said, I'm still looking forward to tomorrow.

In defiance of my ageing self, I'm going out to see 'UP' with some friends.

Damn straight.

PFFF- WE ARE WEIRD.

2009-06-01T05:19:00.000-07:00

I can't believe I forgot to post this.

Man, are we weird or are we weird?

...we're weird.

Doodle~

2009-06-01T05:14:00.000-07:00

Sketched this up in paint. It's done in a friends style...I wanted to try to copy it, just for shits and giggles. Ya know.

In the end it turned out quite well for a little sketch. Too bad is isn't my style! JELOUS.

Updates

2009-05-28T06:13:00.000-07:00

1. I'm still working on my website...it's almost done!

2. I received 'Arts Leader' for my graduating class of 2010! It's gonna be a great year.

3. I received 'Assembly Committee Leader' for next year, too!

4. Just finished reading Squee! by J. Vasquez (It was, unsurprisingly, amazing)

5. AnimeNorth (my super nerdy Anime convention) was fantastic. One of the best years yet, and I'm a 5 year veteran

...I'll write more updates later (and give a screen-shot of my W.I.P. website),
but I need to study some bloody Functions and Applications right about now.

IMPORTANT MESSAGE

2009-05-26T13:02:00.001-07:00

Sonia wants me to tell the world how stupid our government is.

...Hello World. Our government is stupid.
The End.

This is my evening.

2009-05-25T19:47:00.000-07:00

I'm tired. It's getting late. Haven't finished my homework. Have lots of work to do. Have a headache. Have an alergic reaction on both arms. Have school in the morning. Lots of chores to finish.

...Fuck it all, I'm gonna go read me some Deadpool.

Artistically frustrated

2009-05-20T18:03:00.000-07:00

I'm going crazy. Honest, I'm just going crazy.

I have so many damn things to do, and knowing that I'll be applying to University/College soon isn't helping. I want to do something in the Arts, possibly animation. I'd love that. But I'm just going damn crazy trying to get my art skills up to my own standards.

I wrote this to some of my online friends:

"DURRR, I'M FRUSTRATED.

I don't know why, but every time I start drawing,

I get pissed off at how its turning out and I end up stopping.

Bleh..."

Then one of my good online friends said this:

"Awwww.

Yeah that happens to everyone.

Its like right in between when your artist eye has gotten better, but your technique is a bit behind it,

Just focus on practicing and keep posittivveeee to keep yourself out of an art block

Right after this your art should improve~"

When she wrote "Its like right in between when your artist eye has gotten better, but your technique is a bit behind it", I couldn't believe it. She had taken my frustrations and put it into words, and it suddenly made perfect sense.

I know that I can't stop, that I can't give up. This is what I love...drawing, filming, animating...ART! And even if I get frustrated, I need to keep at it.

So, on that note, this entry begins with a little something I doodled up.

Enjoy.

Virus Squared

2009-05-19T17:10:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm sick. Again...Why am I always bloody sick? I used to have a damn strong immune system, but it's like it has decided to make up for years of not being sick.
And, seemingly, it has decided to do it all in short period of time. Joy.

My computer was sick too, and had to be completely re-imaged today. I wasn't worried, since I had everything all backed up. I'm pretty darn happy nothing was lost - I was working on some artwork, too! It was nice to see that some of my online friends had commented on my absence.
I missed you guys, too.

So, basically, this post it to assure everyone that I'm back and not dead.
Seriously. I'm not.

Fuzzy Contemplation

2009-05-11T08:08:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm sick. Again. Whoop-de-doo.

I should really be doing homework while I sit up in bed, but my head feels all fuzzy. The only reason I'm even blogging is because I'm bored. At least, I think that's why. I'm too tired to tell.
Whatever.

Anyways, I was just contemplating how beautiful my dog is.
She's lying next to me, like she knows I need someone to snuggle right now, and she's just breathing lightly and drifting off to sleep. It's adorable.
She's so soft, too, and doesn't mind me leaning against her even though it must be a bit uncomfortable. She really does look like a little black fox when she sleeps. She curls up into a ball, and lets her tail cover over her nose. Sometimes she stretches out and makes little snuffling sounds, and her paws twitch, almost as if she were running in her sleep. I bet she dreams of chasing squirrels.

Death of a Friend

2009-05-09T19:35:00.000-07:00

I get attached to things too quickly.
So far, in my life, it has been both a blessing and a curse.

The title of this blog states 'Death of a Friend', when it really should say 'Death of a Pet'. However, though it was my pet (if only for a few weeks), it was more of a friend than anything. I recently received two goldfish from the 'Arts Dinner' at my school. They had been swimming in glass vases on each table as its centerpiece, and were given away later in the evening. I gladly took two home, and named them Purge (male) and Proxy (female).

Well, this morning, Proxy passed away.

I'm sure most of you are rolling your eyes thinking "It's just a bloody fish". Well, yes. Yes, it was a fish. But she was my fish, and my friend, and I loved her. Proxy was a bright orange goldfish, the kind you see in every Internet picture when you type 'Goldfish' into the server. But she was still special. She was energetic, and ate more food than I really should have given her...spoiled little fish. I'll remember her with fondness.

Purge, my black goldfish, is getting along nicely. After Proxy died I cleaned out his tank, refilled his water, and fed him.
He spent the next half hour flitting back and forth in the tank, clearly not happy.

I guess that makes two of us.

Overworked, Underpaid, Overloaded, Under pressure

2009-05-07T12:01:00.000-07:00

NNNGGGGG.

I have just too much to do, and not enough time to do it.
It's the bloody plea of every teenager, I'm sure.
More than just teenages...of everyone!
I'm just sick of working, working, working, and yet never getting anything done!
There is always something else to be done! ALWAYS.

I shouldn't even be blogging right now.
I should be working.

...I'll go do that.

X-men Origins: Wolverine (RANT)

2009-05-03T17:21:00.000-07:00

*SPOILERS*
If you haven't seen the movie don't read this.
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Just got out from seeing the newest X-men movie to hit theaters. Now, first let me say that I loved it. Sure their were a lot of problems with it, that I can understand. But none the less, it was a very well done movie that had what people wanted - action, backstory, mutants, violence, revenge, love, wit, and Hugh Jackman naked.
I will reiterate. I really enjoyed the movie.
None the less, I'm going to rip it to pieces on a single account.
Deadpool.

So, as most of you know from a previous post, I'm a Deadpool fan. I love the 'Merc with a Mouth', because he's just such a damn brilliant character.
And at the start of the movie, as Wade Willson, he was freakin' awesome. I was literally jumping out of my seat. He's got the wit, the charm, and the skills that we'd expect from Deadpool. Which, in a way, didn't make sense. In the comics, Wade Wilson was rather on the silent side of things. Only after he becomes Deadpool does he start jabbering away.
A.K.A. - The movie had it backwards.
In this version, Wade Wilson is yakking away and his future self, Deadpool, has his mouth sewn closed.
This, in retrospect, is a pretty small detail considering everything else they did to Deadpool.

I'm not going to rant on about all the powers they gave him, and how we have to assume that he loses all of them except his healing ability. Whatever.

It's just...his character design made me pretty mad. Sure, he had scars on his eyes that kinda looked like the black markings on his mask. Sure. But what was with the weird patterns on his body? They could have made him look a little more...well...like Deadpool. In the comics, Weapon XI and Deadpool are two entirely different characters, and they desided to amalgimate them into one for the movie. So let me get this strait...they chose to name the character Deadpool, but made him appear like Weapon XI? Riiiight...
I'm just going to say that this 'Deadpool' is an alternate reality version, made specifically for the movies. Kinda in the same way that this movie has an awesome Sabertooth, but in the other X-men movies, he's a bloody idiot that has no relevance to this plot.

Now, it's secret ending time.
Only when I got back home did I learn that they were actually showing different secret endings in different theaters. I thought it was a rumor - and apparently is not.
The ending I saw at the end of the credits was the Deadpool one, thank goodness, and apparently has the most relevance to the plot. Deadpool lives. Huzzah! But...if they ever create a Deadpool movie spin-off, how the hell are they going to fix all this? How will they turn him from a villain back into our beloved, talkative mercenary?
The other ending (which I saw later on Youtube) had no relevance to the plot. It was just Wolverine drinking and talking in Japanese...pointless.

HOWEVER. There have been rumors. I believe them to be just that - Rumors. I have heard that one secret ending is that the real Wade Wilson picks up Deadpool's head and says 'Who the hell is that?'. This, basically, would fix everything. The Deadpool that we saw was, in fact, not really Deadpool but a clone of Wade. That would work perfectly! The awesome-Wade from the beginning would go on to turn into the Deadpool we know and love, and this Deadpool-clone would just be an experiment gone wrong. However, this rumored ending conflicts with the one I saw, making it even more unlikely.
In any case, I haven't been able to find that rumored version anywhere on the Internet.
Also, Wikipedia states that their are only two endings.

So, to conclude, this wasn't a bad movie debut for Deadpool. Though casting him as the 'silent villain' later on may have ended up being a poor choice, I still feel that it worked out in the end. If the audience loves Deadpool enough, maybe he'll get his own Origins movie in which Marvel can set things right.

Follow Up to "Brain Pain"

2009-04-30T10:49:00.000-07:00

Sorry about the lack of updates!

Well, I think I should recap my visit to the hospital. Though I was sceptical, everything went quite smoothly. This Doctor knew what he was doing, it was easy to tell.
I was poked and prodded (including being stabbed in the face and other various parts by pins),
and asked a hell-of-a-lot of questions.
And this is what came of it:

Basically, other Doctors had classified my headaches as a single problem
This was not the case
I have three different kinds of headaches
All three have different kinds of medicines
They are all curable, with a little experimentation of what drug works for me

Top Banana! I just need to take my medicine on a regular basis and then I'll be fine. At least, that is what we are hoping.

The bad news with all this? No caffeine for a week. I didn't realize my dependency on it until I was off it. My god, I love that stuff. I'm not one for coffee, but all my drinks contain tea (specifically green tea) which has a lot of the good-'ol-stuff in it.

I don't think I've ever been so damn tired.

Brain Pain

2009-04-23T06:50:00.001-07:00

Well, I'm off to the hospital today.

You see, I've been having headaches. All the time. 24/7.
It's gotten to the point where its really invading my life. I have to constantly take meds, keep a journal rating the pain of my headache, and continue to live my life as if nothing is happening to me.
I've gotten a blood test, I've talked with my doctor, and no one seems to know what the hell is wrong.
"It's just stress" has been the most common, cop-out answer. It isn't stress. I know it isn't because when I was on vacation, being the most relaxed I had been in a very long time, I had one of the worst bouts of headaches I'd ever had.

Well now I'm off to see a 'specialist'. Forgive me if I'm sceptical, but I feel like he won't be able to figure out what's wrong either.
I've pretty much resigned myself to living the rest of my life with these headaches, slowly becoming accustomed to the constant pressure in my brain.

I just hope I'm wrong.

"Bon Voyage!"

2009-04-19T11:29:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy right now I could cry.

My grandmother just gave me one of the best presents in all the world - the gift of travel and life experiences.
My Bubby, as we call her, stayed with my family for the past few days...just a friendly visit and whatnot. My sister and I are both going traveling this summer - My sister is off on an exchange to Australia, while I'm going to Kenya. Both these places, as you can imagine, are quite expensive. I had to do a lot of promising, begging, and bargaining in order to convince my parents to even consider letting me go. So, naturally, we were both enthralled when my parents agreed to both trips.
This brings us back to my grandmother - my sister and I couldn't shut up about our trips! And, thank goodness, my Bubby kept asking to hear more about it.

Well, only a few moments ago she had to hop on a train back to Montreal. We said our goodbyes, knowing we'd see each other in a months time for the unveiling of my grandfathers grave stone. While closing the door behind her she paused and turned to my sister and I, quite casually, and said:
"By the way, I'll be paying for both your trips this summer. Bon Voyage!"

It was completely unexpected, and I almost couldn't find the words to thank her!
BonVoyage indeed!

Underrated Superhero

2009-04-18T12:22:00.000-07:00

Kids, raise your hands if you know who Deadpool is. What, none of you know who is is?

I'm not surprised.

Deadpool has to be one of my favourite superheroes (though its hard to define his that way, he's more of an anti-hero psychopath than anything...) and goddamn it, no one knows how awesome he is. But maybe, next month, they will.

That's right kids! Deadpool makes his live action appearance is 'X-Men Origins: Wolverine'. I can only hope it will live up to expectations and be as kick-ass as we're all hoping for.

Speaking of character, let me introduce you to Deadpool.

Don't worry, I'm not giving away much of his origin...you can leave that job to the movie.

Basicly, I'm going to tell you why he's one of my favourites.

1. He's a mercenary.

That means a shit load of guns and blowing people up. Fun! He's known as 'The Merc with the Mouth'. My kinda guy, if you ask me.

2. He's got Wolverine's healing powers, and doesn't mind dying.

He might even enjoy it. In one issue, he actually yells to be run through by Wolverine's adamantium claws. Psychopathic fun!

3. He knows he's a comic book character.

That's right, you heard me. He knows things he shouldn't about the Marvel universe, and assumingly would only know these things if he read the comics of his fellow heroes! He's also completely cognizant of the fact that he, too, is a character by breaking the third wall on a nearly regular basis. It makes for some amazing dialog.

He's a hard character to get down just right, but I have confidence.
Some spoilers on the web have told me that you don't get to see Deadpool in his recognizable (at least for us nerds) red-and-black outfit. I don't care to much about that as long as they do him right.

Here's hoping.

2009-04-17T11:25:00.000-07:00

Just a little something I doodled during Media Arts (even though that wasn't at all what we were working on.)
I've tried over and over to draw a decent picture of myself, and I feel like this narrowly qualifies. It isn't amazing, but for the short amount of time I drew it in I think it came out quite well. I'm trying a new colouring style recommended and taught to me by some friends online.
To be honest, it doesn't quite work with my style. The colouring by itself is very smooth, soft, and light. I love it, but not with the think-lined cartoon style I've adopted.
I'm sure I'll find a better use for it.

I am the Mastermind, Intelligent by design

2009-04-16T11:59:00.000-07:00

I felt that I should open my new blog with a few lyrics from the song 'Mastermind' by Mindless Self Indulgence.
Hence the strange title.

I have no idea if this blog will go anywhere. I've changed a lot since my old blog, titled ' Bamboo Forest', was deleted. I think I've always wanted to start blog up again, but never gained the confidence back. Well, surprisingly unlike me, I've jumped aboard the 'mainstream train'
...next stop, Blog Spot.